Dear hero,
I miss you today. Everyday will be more accurate actually. But why I seldom see you in my dreams. I wonder.
Final exam is coming soon so does holiday. Everyone around is so happy once they talk bout getting home and being with their family. I don really feel that way (Ok, you can call me dork). Maybe I’m still scare to face something. Though I know I’m not alone, I feel single-handedly. I wish my old friends not to question me what had happened. Thanks for the care really but digging out something deep inside the flesh is ouchy. Even I wish it doesn’t even happen before. Ya, I know it’s impossible.
Today is already 100th. Things sometime just happen at the speed of light without your further notice. Compare to the earlier days, I sure will become numb, down and sleep whole day. Really thanks to my buddies around whom delighting my way and walk me through the orgy buggy road. I’m growing and trying to be tough. There are always tears in heart that never reach the eyes. I mention that phrase before. Please do not feel sorrow when you saw tears in my eyes. Probably I’m just suddenly filled with nostalgia, thinking back the days I used to stick with you and feel blessed to own such wonderful memories with you. I deeply believe that you are watching me from far all the time. You are the shiniest star up above the sky. When I feel tire, all I need to do is look out through the window and search for you. Am I right? Or maybe you are staying right beside me as my guardians’ angel. Am I correct?
Some people feel proud when tell others they do not know how to cook. I feel totally shame and regret that I’ve never ever cook something special than instant Maggi noodles for you. Though you are not here, I’ll still wanna learn cause I wanna take care someone special for you. Start from now on, everything I do is done it for you too.
Don worry ya big hero, I believe a charming full time hero is on his way coming. Before he reaches me, there’re still a lot of part time heroes and heroin here to save my days.
p/s: I love you, my dearest..daddy
