Awaken

She woke up to the sound of message ring tone. It was raining outside as she did not even realised it was already two in the noon. Seems like a steady drizzly day to her. She was trying to feel around with her right hand and grabbed the phone supposedly somewhere beside the bed. She did not fully awaken until she opened her eyes and read this message.

[Let me know if you'll like to see tt]

With a sob of driven out from despair in not getting to see her puppy ever again, she pulled herself out from the bed. No, no longer a puppy anymore, now it should be a 21 years old adult doggy indeed.

[ :' ) I always dream to.. ]

[Anytime..]

From the first thought, she replied.

[Can i see him now? ]

[Yes..If you want to.. ]

Not to have a second thought.

[Where?]

[Here of cos]

Any sane person could be realised that she has no transport to go over. Get back in sensible shoes, she felt disappointed.

[Dumb me.. I don have transport to come over now. Mayb next time then..]

With a sense of despair, she threw herself back to the bed again. That's it, the end of the conversation she thought. Then she received one of her close friend replied after she shared her gladden out. A thought come out from nowhere she asked her buddy to accompany her to find him. Maybe she had no courage to face him alone and worried that the situation might be awkward if no one is there to pierce the silence. She was waiting his reply to confirm her buddy.

*Buzz buzz*

[It is more like now to me rather than later.. Yeah sure..]

She replied her buddy and ran to take shower. Blew her hair and opened the wardrobe only aware that she did not had any cloth to wear as she had not planned to going out this weekend. Simply a singlet and shorts, she hopped out without her brunch.

Life is a like a maze. No one knows how big and how fancy or complicated it could be. We might get lost sometime somewhere somehow. Some people manage to get back to square one, talking different path and start everything all over again but some might still sticking to the same old familiar path because having the feelings of insecure and dare not to explore new road.

Some might already gave up in neither these irregular paths in which it is difficult to neither find one's way back nor knowing where you're heading. However, behind each turn, there are lots of unexpected waiting for us.

Around this corner, she gasped in astonishment. It was like a dream to her that things around could be happening now. The sound of piano was so beautiful but a little sorrow just like a fluffy cupcake whipped with soured cream. It was hard to suppress nostalgia for not looking back at those moments. She hugged tt close to her and wished that clock could stop tickling.

She was alone at home and could not sleep well that night. Insomnia, she supposed. She had a lot of questions marks in her mind but she chose not to ask. She already knew what she probably getting from him and the response or even no response at all. A restlessness night, forcing herself to sleep again and again.

She woke up to the sound of message ring tone. It was not raining outside this time two in the morning. Instantly, she grabbed the phone beside her bed. It was him again, initially text her within 12 hours. The record of the year. She was totally awaken now.

[Reason i would like you to see tt is because i look back and see no reason not to do so. Just make me feel better.]

He had answered her doubt without any questions thrown out. She was getting confused.

[Don't you think I do not deserve to see tt again for what I’d done? I feel bad as I’m the one brought him back but end up you're the one who taking k of him all this time.]

'He might just ignore me.' She thought.

[Nah..he's good. Brought lots of fun.]

She smiled and pleased to heard that. This feeling could already enough to lulled her to sleep.

Walking on the irregular path, we can never exactly predict and understand stories behind unforeseen circumstances.

[It's hard to believe there's no one falling in you.]

A sudden message came unexpectedly. She read the message again and again trying to find a most reasonable answer, reason or what so ever excuse to that message for not making her thinking too much but she could not. No more reply from him when she was expecting one. This is life? No one can answer. Maybe Douglas Adam can. Thrown out a number 42 and gone.

Awaken. It was really hard to close eyes when the uncertainty is glittering around. They stop her from sleeping. She was once again numb by the silence of the night. Someone just dig her a memory lane and she left herself an empty shell. Only he can explain.